In Volume 2, we published an article to raise awareness about the #MeToo campaign. The following stories were submitted by Cogswell students to raise awareness around sexual assault.
The stories that follow are descriptive and may be disturbing or alarming to some readers. If you experience an emotional reaction to any of the pieces below, please do not hesitate to seek the counseling services listed below.
"My ex-boyfriend would tell me that I need to perform sexual acts on him in the morning or else he'd be in a bad mood and a 'bad boyfriend.' If I didn't do it, he wouldn't leave me alone until I made up for it somehow. I used to think that it was just what couples do. I was wrong. I didn't know it then, but I was routinely abused [into doing] something I didn't want to. Every day." "
"I went to party, and like everyone else, I drank A LOT. I blacked out and woke up in the middle of the night to find myself sleeping on the bathroom floor with my boyfriend at the time, right beside me. He woke to the sounds of me puking in the toilet bowl, and he asked me if I was still drunk, which I was. He forced himself [on] me, right then and there, even though I told him not to. He pinned my hands down, and used his palm to muffle the sounds coming out of my mouth, and took advantage of me. I spoke to him about it when I was sober again, and he replied, 'You enjoyed it too, so I don't see the big deal.'"
"I was 13 when a group of student[s] (boys and girls) who had picked on me for being tomboyish pushed me in the boys' bathroom and forced their hands down my pants to grab my 'cock' they were convinced I had. I sat in the stall for almost the rest of the day and was given detention for missing my last three classes without permission. It wasn't the school's fault for punishing me. I didn't know how to process it, so I didn't tell anyone until my second college boyfriend, during an argument about my lack of sexual intimacy. The same group would push me into the boys' locker room and boys' bathroom, call me fag or dyke as I passed them in the halls.
I was confused about my sexuality until I entered college, always curious about the other side but never brave enough to allow myself to try it in fear that I would fall back into the same pattern of teasing I had gone through in middle school. My senior year of high school, one of the boys who'd grabbed [me] sent me an apology through Facebook explaining how he wanted to make amends [for] the things he had done as a naive child. I forgave him. It was only after that I was able to finally allow myself to be me."
Cogswell College is a safe place for survivor-victims and has resources available on campus. There are also many local resources (listed below) that can be beneficial as an alternative option.
All survivor-victims have a story, and it is their decision whether or not they want to share. Some survivors may choose not to share their story; this does not mean that they are not affected or that their stories mean less than those who did. All stories posted through the #MeToo campaign were shared to raise awareness and show survivor-victims that they aren't alone.
Rape Abuse Incest National Network (RAINN) Sexual Assault Hotline: 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)
National Sexual Violence Resource Center Hotline: 1-877-739-3895
YWCA Hotline: (800) 572-2782 ywca-sv.org/our-services/support-services